Thrown out like rubbish

Well not tat I'm happy tat i broke up again but I somehow dun feel sad though i reallly love her so much... I totally dun feel anything already... maybe its just that I'm used to my heart being broken? I really feel messed up but dunno why today can still be so high mans... I really want to like just disappear somewhere to let my feelings out but then I'm surrounded by awesome friends who care so much for mi :] i think thats why I can still be happy though i wanna drop dead after feeling like I've been thrown into the rubbish bin again and again and AGAIN... well at least I dun regret the times i spent with you :] it was a BLAST :] almost too real to be true though :] but I still want you to be in my life though I know your so busy with all the stress from the exams and stuff... But I still want to sort this out after the exams are over :|